COVID fantasies

Sometimes I wish I could waltz into the hospital ICUs, take my mask off, touch the patients, touch my face, catch COVID, and die. But it's too late for that, I'm already fully vaccinated. 

Health anxious Chloe back in April wasn't thinking about suicidal Chloe in August.

Crying so much right now

Crying until I can't see

Sobbing until I can't breathe

Heart hurting so much

I want it to bleed.

Bleed, bleed,

Until my body runs dry.

Bleed, bleed, 

And it won't hurt no more.