HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANGIE even though she doesn't read my blog!!!
right now my brain is a mess.
i've been having terrible headaches every day for the past 4-5 days.
maybe it's because starting monday i started hardcore studying, which wasn't even hardcore. it was just "let's step away from the computer while i study so i can concentrate and write proper answers down."
you know when you do a past paper and you read the question and you're like "yeah, i got this. i'll just jot down a few dot points" then you quickly move on to the next question? then you look at the answers and you're like "WOW i wouldn't have thought of all that..."
and then you realise you have a long way to go.
yeh, i wanted to stop doing that. and stop getting distracted by youtube and chatting to people.
i've been trying to wake up earlier lately. not helping. at all.
also i feel a bit ripped off that daylight savings is stealing an hour away from us during our time of need. great timing there.
but i have a study plan and everyday i have a list of what to do and i feel the need to finish the list because i have OCD.
and i think to myself, "what a wonderful world..." no loool i definitely do not think that. i think, "HSC starts in 9 days", i can put up with these headaches for another 9 days. heck, HSC ends in exactly a month. i can put up with this for a month.
i haven't listened to music this whole week because i've been away from the computer but then nabhan told me that spotify pays the artists whose songs you listen to so i joined in (i was told to get it before but was like meh, but then paying the artists was really the only reason i got it)
so now im thinking about that one month later.
what will i do in one month?
well, what will i do starting from tomorrow?
and because i love lists, here is a list of things i want to do (NOTE: this is going to be boring, but it's fun for me and motivates me to continue- basically it's really just for me to read over again later, not you lol):
DURING HSC:
-start taking a picture of something, anything really, every single day starting from paper one (because the day HSC begins is the day our lives begin really) to whenever i get bored of it but hopefully i can sustain it
-study like crazy
that's really it for the 'during HSC' period.
AFTER HSC:
-celebrate straight after chem (duh)
-cut and dye my hair for formal (i would show a picture, but then i want it to be a surprise)
-french manicure done oooooooooooOOOOOOOOOoooooooooo~
-alter formal dress
-paint a lot
-draw a lot
-make a lot (likeeeeeee ceramics, and wood carvings i want to learn to do those they look mad)
-cook a lot
-perfect le macarons
-learn the guitar
-sing songs and put them on youtube yaay
-get facebook (yes, really. and when i get facebook i'll give you a long story on why i never got facebook)
-get back into listening to mainstream (i started doing this actually, i'm knowing more and more mainstream songs aren't you proud of me)
-get super super fit! and when i mean super super fit i don't actually mean fit i just mean have a good body (yes, theyre different things you can be fit without having a good body and vice versa)
-catch up on all the movies i've missed out on because i was studying or because i just never got the chance to watch them and then yeh
-get some clothes! some dresses and all that seeing as i'm more confident with my body and yeh
-do some fun things in malaysia lol like i dunno shop and eat food and document my life and whatnot
-take singing lessons
-take dancing lessons maybe
-learn how to make clothes (like go to dressmaking classes but they're expensive)
-write a lot (i usually write a lot of random poems or short story ideas down and like three of them haven't gone to completion. i'd like to write them and put them up here once in a while)
-make a time capsule, i'll put some random stuff that mean a lot to me in the box and then put it aside and label it 'do not open until 2022' or something =D
hmmmmmmm that's all i can think of now.
but yeh. hopefully this all works out.
it'd be amazing really.
one more month everyone.
just one more month.
you can do it.
i believe in you.
