work exp

new lifelong goal:
-learn morse code
but before i do that, i should probably master lucid dreaming first. i found a good site on learning morse code but yeh ill just master lucid dreaming first, although im having trouble remembering my dreams lately. like sometimes i would remember dreams like 3 days in a row but then after that id be completely lack of remembrance of them and i dont want to interrupt my sleep solely for trying to remember my dreams. =/
-watch a circus show


work exp. day 1:
first thing i did was go out with a guy to put up some signs.
then i did some filing, folding letters, shoving them in envelopes, addressing the envelopes, stamping them and might i say i think i am the MASTER of letters now.
had lunch break (gloria jeans) for about an hour then went back to the letters.
did some databasing, entering customer info into the computers.
after that the receptionist taught me how to answer the phone, transfer the line, take enquiries etc but i didnt do any of that (thank gosh, i really did not want to answer the phone).
sent the letters off, picked up the mail, opened them, distributed them.
mum picked me up and i had some chicken chippees with chicken salt which i havent had for AGES.

it was pretty boring towards 4 o'clock, but the receptionist said that there'd be more stuff for me to do tomoro so yeh i'm looking forward to it. hopefully i can follow someone to go to a house inspection. i cant go to houses if buyers are involved, because they might not trust me or feel alright with me around.


fact 3. i have commitment issues
i can't commit to something, i tend to stop it really quickly, or just get tired/sick of it extremely fast.
even tho i hype something up at the beginning my hype goes like instantly.
i think i always look forward and plan things out so perfectly in my head that when it does happen, its not as wat i thought and so i get frustrated and start hating it?
i'm really impatient in that sense too, i can't sit through the bad, waiting for the good, the good has to come NOW or i will never be happy.

today in a shop i saw the sign "you have to climb the mountain to enjoy the view" or sumthing along those lines. i'm not a climber, id rather look at the view through google, something that i can access to whenever i want.

and that relli sucks because that means that in life, the majority of it will suck for me.
i will be constantly striving for perfection, but as we all know, perfection is never in reach for us. even if i don't reach perfection, but reach an area that i always longed for, always dreamed for, i will be happy for a brief moment then quickly saddened again, just because thats how i am. =[